Retrospective Corner

2012-01-08T03:18:00.000-08:00

Things in life, we have to make decision. As we see the world clearer, consequences tend to weigh a lot heavier. Which would sting more? Having done it and live in guilt or never have done it and live in regret.

2011-12-02T07:46:00.000-08:00

My last day of work at Singapore Sports Council, and i can't describe to you how awesome it was working there. This is what i stare at everyday, me and my laptop in a cozy corner. It's time to move on, I wonder where reality will take me. T.T

2011-11-22T04:34:00.000-08:00

Why you no think earlier?!

This is officially my mascot, and representing my facial expression whenever I realized something - tasting a little bit of enlightenment.

I have thought through many days and seek advice from people with experience, how to be a leader? And all along it is very simple: By Example. As easy as it's said, it's very hard to do.

I prove to be a shiny gem amongst rocks in the shallow pond, and not to be mixed with their distasteful color. Do what is right, even though in situations the majority would choose the potentially correct, socially acceptable way. It always starts with someone, but use wisdom.

All men's souls are immortal, but the souls of the righteous are immortal and divine.
-Socrates

2011-11-18T06:47:00.000-08:00

OMG i learnt my lesson. There is just no point in giving someone the attention if they do not give back, or do not appreciate it. DONT GET SO SERIOUS... life has it's little beauty.

And for once, i actually want to stay at there to work, forever and ever - like a dog (loyal). It is just a nice place, i love the table tennis, i love running around, i love cool people, i love random gifts. Haix.. good luck be blessed on me? Give me an opportunity, i work and study part time!

Bleah, lastly WHERE IS MY MONEH. my iTouch is so near yet so far. I can feel it in my palms already, and it is motivating me to stop by every ATM machine to check the blue lil' card once in awhile.

2011-11-16T06:34:00.000-08:00

Didn't expect it to happen, but probably know it will happen. Still do something to make it happen. Now I am regretting it cause i made it happen. Now i am a failed friend. Dog, sorry blog I fail to keep my promise to you.

2011-11-15T06:16:00.000-08:00

Just like my friend says, they will never understand. Cause they never put their feet in your shoe.

2011-11-14T05:58:00.000-08:00

It used to be working as a team, now it is more like working alone. My little blog had to suffer again, my mental suffocation has to let it go somewhere. People work hard, so people has the right to grumble some times.

I am a perfectionist? Cause I don't see the whole picture to be perfect and i want it to be maybe cause it means a lot to me, or maybe it means a lot to the place i love, grow up from.

Facing problem, don't say no. Give a solution, but don't give nonsense.

Staying too long in a place is no good, you grow complacent and dependent. Less one person we dare not take a step forward, spoon feeding. The safe zone turns into a infestation of cowardice. Only i so stupid to bluff myself that it would get better. It probably will. I did my part, no matter how small.

The world is cruel, learn to be compassionate and not fall with it.

Question?

2011-11-13T05:21:00.000-08:00

Where will I be in 10 years?
Or how will Singapore be like in 10 years.
Suddenly not very confident of the future. T.T

2011-11-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

I WANT AN ANAGAMI. who can give it to me.

2011-10-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

A good way to end the week. LOL that is all i am going to say. MUST BE MINDFUL FOR THE UPCOMING WEEK. Goal set for myself: no swear words if not i will err... I DUNNO!

2011-10-29T11:44:00.000-07:00

Want a new social circle. Need a soul mate. Want to be rich. Need to be Dharmic. Want to be a good friend. Need to be independant.

Quit smoking. HAHA!

2011-10-28T04:22:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i get very sad, when i look back at what i have done, either recently or years back. That i will die one day, and all this will be like a fleeting mist - gone with the wind.

I love my life, the friends i make, the accompany i have, my work, my parent. I count myself fortunate to be a Buddhist, because it packages life in a different way, so much that i would really miss this life because i cherish every tiny blessings i have.

It is just irony to be here to live a life and let it go and move on to another which you have no idea where, and you forget your previous life. It doesn't make sense, does not motivate you.

The Buddha teach - there is a living memory in a part of us. This is one chapter i will never forget. One hell of a ride, and going.

2011-10-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

It is hard to be a bad guy, and even harder to be a good guy.

It all boils down to every action, thought, speech and even presentation. I know i was not a very fine spiritual friend, but i try to be a good friend sometimes.

Like i always say, if there is no challenge, life would be so boring. Whether or not you overcome the challenge in the end, the sense of accomplishment for trying hard is fully satisfying.

close to PERFECTION~ that is my next goal.

2011-10-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

OMG it is just so fustrating i need to let it out.

It is not how you deal with stupid people that fustrates you. They own themself and they don't know it. You try to bring across the point but they are so fucking stubborn you realise not talking is the best solution. Then comes the aftermath, they will get stuck in your head and you just can't forget what the shit just happen.

ROFL! How? Sleep and let the happy things lead me on. And it makes me more assured it is not my place anymore. Or maybe it never was. Karma ripening and i accept that.

Life is all about work? Bullshit man~

2011-10-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

The world is ever changing, and it will be a relief if it is for the better. BUT HELL NO! People are getting less empathy, they are selfish and greedy. I find it amusing how some people can really be comfortable with their own circle of friends and not try and socialize.

COME ON! This is not the case in the movies when you talk to a stranger and i will dope your drink and do nasty things afterwards. If you had realized how tiring it is to be the one trying to make a conversation, you might change your mind.

Nuff said about this, i still have count myself lucky sometimes. Why? I land myself a good job as an intern and i have really cool bosses.

Today, i was watching black hawk down on my lappy and one of the cool boss was locking up his room to leave for a meeting. He came to my desk and looked at what i was watching. The clip was at a discussion to storm down the Somalis. Who the fuck would recgonise the film at THAT PARTICULAR frame?! Hey... it is a war film, could be any other movie right?

He took 3 seconds and told me; " Watching black hawk down huhh. It's a good movie, watch it a lot of times"

I replied "Ya. This is my second time watching."

He smiled and walk away and then turned back to tell me *something confidential*.

Respect to a man who appreciates good movies and understand people at ground level. I want to be like them one day, to be a fine and capable leader and servant at times.

2011-10-02T00:34:00.000-07:00

Boo! i have so much things to say but i don't want to say. I really want to envelop my thoughts and throw them down the building and watch them flutter into the midst and begone. Free from worries and sadness and tired and thinking.

And by the way, i still believe in pure innocent love. It exists! You just have to really keep a lookout and a pinch of luck.

2011-09-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

Its terrifying how I can be so focused on my own thoughts and emotions i get carried away by it.

BY THE WAY...

Under the enlistment act (Chapter 93), all male Singapore Citizens and permanent Residents are required to serve NS. And first step to that is booking a medical checkup.

I did just that and i was going through the survey very smoothly until i bumped into the last 2 section. One required parent signature while the other a measurement of yourself. LOL! How i wish i have the ikea ruler now. Its so simple to use and measure my head size. Pfft... don't wear become stupid can liaos.

So eager to serve my nation... and i bet i will miss home then.

2011-09-27T08:54:00.000-07:00

No time! No life! No money!

Biggest problem in life comes from the smallest things. Cannot liaos la... fucking shag.

Fuck the camp man cause i am making sure my last camp is a one time good one.

2011-09-25T09:05:00.000-07:00

Is it a right attitude to blame all bad things happening to me on karma? Am i facing this unfortunate events because i am paying what i have owed. Time to let go soon; after december.

2011-09-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

I really love sharing sessions, because it is the only time i get to connect with the spiritual aspect. I can learn and share. Being a lazy ass, it is easy to listen and not practice.

It is some times hard to give a 100%, after all it is voluntary basis and no pay involve. I wish i could have done more... but there is just this much time available.

2011-09-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

The world is a little brighter now after last week. MINDEF remembered my existence and has sent me a letter to book a slot for medical check up. A step closer to serving my nation, with enthusiasm and pride.

Also, work has been great. in relation to something i have a passion into: sports events. But my GPA is at its crappiest, 1.64. FML totally man. This means no admission to any university and a block to further my studies after national service.

I think there is seriously something wrong with the younger generations. God damn it, or is it the few individual people who are fucked up.

And i did what i promised i would do, write something cheerful and pleasant on my beloved blog. I didn't let you down <3

2011-09-07T08:50:00.000-07:00

How i wish i have never written that chapter. Cause this is one whole chunk that i will wish to tear out and burn it. I hate to fake, it is just not me. And the burning desire is ever growing strong, no matter how much you dampen it.

Cut out my heart and put it in a chest. Away with emotions; at the end of the day it's suffering. Stings inside and i don't know what to do. Fuck, why is it happening to me sial. I just wanted something simple, that's all.

2011-09-05T09:55:00.000-07:00

Some things in life we cherish because they are rare and hard to get, and we only have a life time to pursue it. Others we leave it to wither in the wind, only to know it's value only when they are gone.

How much will you pay for to acquire something you want most.

2011-09-04T01:22:00.000-07:00

Reminder To Self: Don't go and provoke the sleeping snake again.

Remember the pain you went through please.. sleepless night thinking about misery. Not worth going through it for nothing again. wisen up child.. once bitten twice shy. Stay away from it.

2011-09-03T10:51:00.000-07:00

Pool is fun, brings you back to the days when you were younger; in your secondary school days. You go home bathe and go down to play and act like ah beng. LOL!

I admire girls who play pool well. It's so sexy. And i don't know what to say. Today had not been a very nice day totally.

Thank you for trying your best, i can see with my eyes. Can't risk it, i rather be a mute and dumb then be desolated and helpless like before. But i don't want to go back to the days where i think of you every now and then; and the end result is nothing. I still can't get rid of that feeling for you, so hard...

DO or Die

2011-09-02T22:14:00.000-07:00

I hate my little heart of compassion, after what i do i kind of regret it. Yes, i feel happy for doing it but at the same time i feel sour too. Not asking for reciprocating, but at least a thank you or what?

Help people at the compromise of my own belonging. But what if the share of pie was horded and none is left for you? Would you go hungry. The question now is would they do the same for you? That's a really tricky one, but as much as I have thought; the answer is no.

Too few nice people around, time to blend into the reality.

2011-09-01T17:53:00.000-07:00

The most epic day, that was yesterday. I read the SIP date wrongly as 1st sept instead of 9th sept. And i travelled all the way down to school so early only to find the hallways empty. o.o FML should have been more careful and triple-checked. I was so eager of the work. Damn freaking want to get out of school.

And i guess i have become a full time mahjong player. Not professional, just spending more time on the leisure activity.

2011-08-31T08:54:00.001-07:00

Club is like a fantasy that relieves you of the real world. Everything is so soft in there, and you can smile all night. And at least the people there are reciprocating. :) GOODBYE world!

2011-08-28T21:53:00.000-07:00

I look on the part of the sorrow and forgot i have happiness trailing behind.

Life has more to it then meets the eye. Giving up time for people or work that doesn't deserve it or don't gratitude is fucked up. Everyone is busy what, so when i am more relaxed means i am doing less meh. Its just how i put my time... i will try for one last time arh.

2011-08-27T21:48:00.000-07:00

Confidence of the future!

I was asleep, too tired to catch the live telecast of election result, and even watch Mr Yam deliver his verdict. But when i woke up, i was definitely more confident of my future. Dr. Tony Tan has become our next president but only by a minority vote lead against Dr. Tan Cheng Bock.

A pity we can have only one president. Dr Tan Cheng Bock is truly a remarkable benevolent leader well loved by the society. But i feel it is President Tan that can bring us a more prosperity Singapore. Not only are we looking up to our president, we must be presentable to the world.

None the less, we have a figure head to represent us. But is he loved wholeheartedly? No. Dissidents out there are making a fool out of themselves. They hate and make ugly comments of President Tan. Pro - PAP. Thats the major unhappiness. Vote to choose the right president and not vote to elect away the president you do not like.

Rock it like it's spring. Break!

2011-08-26T17:21:00.000-07:00

在大的風,有兄弟撑腰,都不怕.

2011-08-26T03:30:00.000-07:00

Am i charmed with bad luck? One thing after another just keep happening to me. Is it really me, i wonder.

2011-08-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

Well said, got money anything also can settle. HAHA! like a boss.

Tomorrow hope 老天爷 bless me paper "shun shun li li !" HUAT!

2011-08-24T17:13:00.000-07:00

A new beginning means a tough day ahead. But i am not afraid, because i am going to mug like there is no tomorrow. Cannot let myself and everyone down. Buddha bless and may all temptations go away! Let me study in peace T.T if not i will never kill that dreaded paper.

I CAN DO IT! BITCH!

超人不會飛

2011-08-23T21:51:00.000-07:00

Before i slept yesterday night, i got into thinking again. I took a little time to apply Buddhism on my wound and it did actually heal. Just a peek at what i have discovered.

I compare myself with others and i realize i lack some things which i want and cannot get. ( Greed )

I am unable to change the fact that you . ( Anger )

I knew what the future will be like, and i didn't like it. That was making me very unhappy because i have expected it to suit my way, but then again who doesn't want smooth sailing life without anxiety. ( Ignorance )

P.S. This post is not for anyone, just particularly myself so i can reflect on it every time i feel unhappy again by straying in the wrong path.

I believe i shouldn't ask what will the future holds, but rather what i can do now to make us happy. And for me to be happy i think i will do my best arh.

And managerial acoounting, fuck you. Cause i swear i will be the first in the school to break your back. FREEDOM!

傻女孩...

2011-08-22T18:56:00.000-07:00

跟你說那么多, 但你变得跟傷心.
I hope my dad will get well soon.. and that the piece of crap will leave him far away as possible.

2011-08-22T09:20:00.000-07:00

The exams are drawing nearer and i have one last paper standing in front of me. Today had been a really relieving day, and sad to say Managerial Accounting Paper. Your gonna fucking die cause i am going to tear you apart. 100% ready to take you on and not see you AGAIN.

我还好..你呢?

2011-08-21T20:43:00.000-07:00

I think you will be.

喜欢人沒有错, 只是喜欢错时間.

Ultimately i want you to be happy right.

Lesson learnt, and i don't want to go back to where i started from anymore.

How to mend...

2011-08-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

A broken heart is a metaphor used to describe the intense emotional pain or suffering one feels after losing a loved one, through death, divorce, breakup, moving, being rejected, or other means. - wikipedia

I guess my case doesn't even qualify for that, cause it is only a one side affection. I must be stupid to be so crazy over it. I don't even put this much energy to study. I laugh at people who are like me in the past, now I get the karma. So frustrating to keep it inside me with no one to confide with. Overwhelming is the word, and i have to admit. Let go bah... you are not worthy enough for her.

And sorry blog... for posting shit on you to let people see. I promise a brighter and cheerful post when i get better.

Penny worth thought

2011-08-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

2 christian women shared a verse with me:

2 Timothy 3

But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people.

2011-08-19T12:16:00.000-07:00

There are so much misery in this world, the hardest barrier to cross over is still yourself. I don't know why i even harbor the thought that everything would be alright, when behind the facade lies the truth i never wanted to see. I know what's behind and i chose not to see. Stupid self-denial in action. Applause dummy, i win the undisputed award of being the worse slut ever.

busy trio

2011-08-19T02:51:00.000-07:00

Adios! Currently i am very distracted and thus decided to post on my blog. I make it a point to put up a new post every morning. But recently i have this irritating mental block that disrupts the natural flow of what i want to share.

So looking forward to the camp's dhamma walk. It will be a re-enactment of the Buddha's life. Although we keep playing on the same old story, i feel that it is like how you treat a book. The second reading will never be the same as the first one. Tendency is you gain more insight and understand better.

Serpant of Eden

2011-08-17T18:47:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 27:4

Wrath is cruel, anger is overwhelming, but who can stand before jealousy?

101 thoughts in a lightning flash

2011-08-16T10:11:00.000-07:00

A picture speaks a thousand words. I told myself I will be fine but when I look at that picture all the past-related emotions and thoughts come flooding back into me. Perhaps the rarest treasure is best sought and the simplest item is least loved.

Opportunities in life come only once and if you miss it, I guess regret is the answer. But not all golden opportunities can be grasped even if it presents itself. Conditions generate a lot of obstruction to question if you can take up that opportunity. Who hasn't regret? I lost mine due to being stubborn ( angry at myself or angry at the person ). I got so angry I didn't bother pursuing the matter and as time passes, it slips away.

All my thoughts aside for tonight, I wish to give thanks to MRT for the last train that took me home safely. Singapore transport system is probably the best in our region and I am grateful for it. People can find the tiny faults with it but I shall appreciate the service.

It's like a half filled cup. You either choose to see the cup half empty, or the cup half filled. It really does make a lot of difference.

Peculiar

2011-08-14T20:36:00.000-07:00

I believe my behavior is getting weirder and weirder. People don't understand me anymore. LOL I blame it on the lack exposing myself to talking to people. But I spend my whole day staring at the computer... unless it can speak to me. And I need to go pick myself up and study NOW! Exams drawing nearer and so a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.

2011-08-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Escapism is not the answer. But avoiding what you don't want seems to be the only solution in this situation. God-damn myself. FUBAR.

2011-08-13T19:56:00.000-07:00

Is indulging in evil an evil by itself?

2011-08-12T19:35:00.000-07:00

You know I will catch a grenade for you, but you won't do the same.

2011-08-11T02:24:00.000-07:00

I want my Starbucks. Should I or should I not?

my poor blog

2011-08-10T02:31:00.000-07:00

I think I diminish the quality of this blog by always visiting and posting on it when I am unhappy and down. It has become a little venting alternative, like shouting at the vast ocean to vent your anger.

But as much as I can say, some things will remain unspoken because it will not be meaningful if said. I don't think it is called secrets but I can't find another word to categorize it.

Today I did a little presentation on the national anthem of USSR as my course project and I think it went perfectly well. School term will be ending soon and i can't wait to go into army, to contrary believes. I find pride and joy in defending my country.

相信我吧新加坡!

2011-08-09T09:44:00.000-07:00

I have never felt so stupid my entire life other then today. But personal matters aside, Happy National Day! 46 years old. The last parade for our beloved president, passing of baton to the younger generation and cultivating the Majulah spirit. I wish for our nation to be forever pretty, and stedfast prosperity and peace.

People took a longer time to stand up to sing a national anthem in comparison to watching fireworks. And they are people out there complaining we are wasting money on the extravaganza. This all doesn't make sense. I find it very disturbing and sad.

From Ikea with Love

2011-06-07T07:02:00.000-07:00

Sliced Salmon

God Damned Meatballs

Ikea never fails to impress and make you want to stay there a little longer. Firstly, the food there is Godly! Esp. the freaking meatballs. And being Tuesday, you are entice to get a flag and a piece of cake that taste like cherry & vodka and super glue with alot of sugar. Its really sweet and top of the world.

Also, the exhibitions of concept rooms and homes makes your room looks like a bitch and you need a make over. Just a little walk and you will be like... "wow i want that... and maybe this! its all gonna fit right"

It is a good place to go with your friend because you get to see what they want their house to look like and you share yours with them. Or maybe you are intending to make a home together muahahaha!

Aside that today was a pretty fine day, and the sun was blazing like no one's business. God must help me for tomorrow paper. For i have studied quite hard and wants to pass. I no longer want to stay in the fucking school. I need a move on, damn it.

I must be crazy!

2011-06-04T08:20:00.000-07:00

I guess wendy's was my girlfriend tonight. She gave me a really good sugar rush for $2.80. Ya.. other then that i was alone at home doing accounting and nothing practically. Life been 1 is awful. T.T

Walking down to grab my dinner was amazing. And seriously, the air you breathe on the 13th floor is so much different then at the ground level. You feel so much freedom when you can walk. And i saw a crow perched at the letterbox, darn i never took a picture of it.

I don't know what to say but i just want to talk! to someone. hello...

Mixed feelings

2011-06-04T03:53:00.000-07:00

There are times when you spend time alone, you get a feeling of anxiety of wanting to be with someone or at somewhere but the fact is, you cannot because it is too far or the person has no reason to see you.

So you get depressed and i don't know, feel helpless. These days I was troubled by this, and I need to find a way to mediate this situation. Hmm... I have got more important things to do but I am pushing them asides on the note that I have lost motivation to continue.

Tuesday to Wednesday transition

2011-05-31T09:50:00.000-07:00

Firstly... mosquito bites all over me and it's killing me. Every minute I just have to give them a little scratch and it's bleeding on me. And it prolly looked freaking unglam in the public's eye.. but I just can't stop it.

Secondly, I have been very sleepy today. But generally a very good life, i get to eat sleep and play.

Thirdly, I got my first date since don't know how long. :D hurray! My best friend's going concert with me!

Fourthly, I am going club tomorrow and i have little cash on me... yea! Poor boy. And i am planning to go with a mohawk. It's gotten back into me. I just need that hair to make me look a little bit more dangerous. Hope my mum commisions it.

Lastly, I want to be a bad boy now and then. Just make mischiefs and not get caught. Hang out with friends all day long. :D Don't keep saying about last time, its boring. Do it now and then before your childhood leaves a trail behind you. Thats life aint it? Live without regrets.

Beta Test

2011-05-29T19:45:00.000-07:00

Sunday , Sunday! Gotta get up on Sunday! At a very early time. I overslept obviously, but still glad i didn't go down to "ton" with the guys, because no sleep would result in the whole day turning sour. And so we were at Pasir Ris the whole day, at different locations to test out the games we would play on Camp Lions 2011.

Really looking forward to it! And yea... I got to explore many unseen places within the park. Along the way there were many creepy crawlies, some caught my attention while some just freak me out. There are just so disjusting... Yuck!

Overall it had been fun with the guys, so long had we not hanged out as one to get working and also at the same time have fun. The maze was really good for Nerf war and we can go back there some day.

2011-05-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

Avid listeners of my droning posts, i appreciate you all very much. But I believe i have very few who tramples onto this blog to visit often. Luckily, i am not pressurised to write a very good composition. But nevertheless, I put in effort because these are my thought. And i have no intention to bring down the goodwill of this wonderful blog I have created.

Today was a very stupid day. I woke up early, went to school and realised there was no lesson. FML. I am bad with remembering things, or maybe too lazy to copy down that's why. I don't like to write an event on a particular date. It strangles me.

I need freedom, but i do not have the discipline. Hmm... Anyways, I was feeling a little upset in the afternoon. Was playing Mahjong with my friends, and not because i lost. When a friend you put above normal friends, say something random even though they might not mean it, it could still sting. I don't know why i feel that. Cause i rarely get hurt by words, I am pretty an expert with venom speeches. I build a defence quite sturdy. But with you around it's quite different, transform me into a small boy.

I have grown to have expectations of you. And this is bad, meaning i can get disappointed very often. I like perfection.

2011-05-25T01:47:00.000-07:00

Pandora was curious about what is inside the box given to him by Zeus, which contained all the evil in the world. Once open, it is left undone. Fine example of how curiosity killed the cat. Well.. we can't blame pandora, she is a WOMAN and extremely paranoid.

I find it very hard to act normal again when you realise something is happening around. Keeping a secret is fine, but acting you don't know is a little difficult for me. The realisation is there and frequently pops up to remind you that you DO actually know what is happening.

I have seen life, and quite understands how it generally works. And i can smell a rat in a short time. People's reaction or action tells it all. So fun when you do the guesswork and your answer is right.

Yea then why did I want to know it in the first place... because i am curious! Thats why.. and i like the fun of keeping secrets for your friends or hearing what cannot be spoken out generally. You feel important and needed.

2011-05-23T05:01:00.000-07:00

The weather is outrageous these days! I don't even have time to scold the word "f***", i was persipring the whole time to be bothered about anything.

Average count of bathe per day - 3. Fantastic.. in this dire times i cannot stand myself sweaty and uncomfortable, so i inmerse myself in cold water. But after 1-2 hours, its back to normal. And normal is abnormal. It's as though the sun is just right outside my room and its turning into an oven. I am slowly cooking and hot inside out.

I am having headaches all the time because of the weather and i will not be surprised if i collasped due to heat stroke. I am putting the blame on NO AIRCONDITIONING AT HOME. Ridiculous i have so many fans and they are blowing hot air in my face! My biggest wish now, is that i could have a room made up of small ice cubes <3

I hope world end @ 2012 isn't about drought and everyone combusting simultaneously. I rather die of freeze or alien invasion. God bless the world anyways.

2011-05-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

Today was a very... lazy sunday. All i did was laze around mostly and did a little bit of my work when i felt the ideas tingling. You see, i was writing a journal for my creative writing class. And recently i have abundant brain blocks and it was pretty hard to remove.

And because last night i stayed up, those little symptoms - sneeze, cough sprung up automatically. And here i officially announce myself an old man and will dis-associate myself with teenagers activities such as staying up late for the preservation of my life.

To add on to being lazy, i was perspiring all day long. The sun felt as though it was literally outside my house. Very bad indeed... and i bathed 3 times a day. I love cleaniness and i can't stand being dirty. URGH. And also, yesterday's bicycle ride gave my ass ( which has no meat ) numb! And it still hurts right now.

I always have this feeling when i wake up from a sleep in the afternoon. I misses a person and wants to see him/her like right there and then. I have this regreting feeling too like if i don't see that person i will feel sad. I used to have it for my ex-gf. But today i thought of you. I feels wrong not to spend a day with you, or talk to you. I am not writing this to indirectly tell you if you are reading, this is my blog ultimately and this is my thoughts! Well... and i managed to sms that person first thing i woke up :D

House Outing

2011-05-21T21:10:00.000-07:00

East Coast Park! So long since i got so near to the sea, and it definitely smell of vacation and freedom! The breeze was awesome and the sun was at the right degree. We were all there to roller blade. Actually i didn't do it with them because i don't want to look stupid and get stuck because i was riding on 8 mini wheels. Have to maintain cool composure at all times.

So instead, i rode the bike. Driving was like my natural instinct and i was pretty good at it. hohoho~ not been proud okay! P.S wants to get my driving license soon and i hate to be driving when i am dreaming and at the arcade.

Humph! Back to ECP, the beautiful day was ruined by a bloody marathon that cut off the road to the jetty, supposedly our destination. And so we just cycle up and down the other end of the park and it was retarded. Luckily dinner brought my hapiness level back up. And lesson learnt, pictures speaks a thousand word.

It was Char Kway Teow and Dimsum. The taste still linger in my mouth... the freshness of the prawn. Haix.. i promise to go back soon and eat it!

For now, happy sunday! A good day to sit back and relax.

2011-05-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

20years.

That is the amount of time we know each other for. And he is like a brother to me. We were neighbours, classmates, best friends and now a brother. We did all the cock things we could think of with our little minds and we were happy.

I hardly see him but i miss him. A man cannot say he misses because he should not, but he shows. I appreciate the little things in life and he is one i rejoice. He is someone i will definitely die for without a second thought.

And, friday friday~ gonna get down on friday. And we did! We went down to douby ghaut to play LAN games. Following that a little game of pool at concord hotel. This is like a little tavern where pros meet. They were good with their game and i am awe struck - speechless.

And I got to eat chargrill. Epic food i tell you after eatcing all the nonsense fast food and western food. It seriously didn't look nice, but i taste havenly. The first bite took my breath away and i flew to cloud 9. Thank you ann~ :d

2011-05-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

They say i play games seriously. Yes i do i fucking agree with you. When a game has a purpose and requires you to achieve it, its different to me. Leisure games like angry birds, or whatever apps you play on iphone i don't care how bad you screw. But when it comes to mmorpg or fps i am dead serious. I want to win.

I like the idea of working in a team to achieve something greater, when only a person is impossible. The feeling of someone having your back and yourself a worthy partner to your friends means something to me. Not just anyone can do that.

I hate the sentense " just a game". I will take a chair and smash it in your fuck face. Even if i die doing that i will still scar you for life.

And when i am angry when i lose i am NOT A SORE LOSER. I just feel pissed about the losing process. Some things could have done better. But its all a learning journey... no one is perfect.

I can't get myself to shut up and let things happen as it is. Sometimes i get a little overboard with my words cause i don't know what to say anymore. And the funny thing is people take words so seriously. o.o

What i feel is someone needs to be the bad guy. I don't mind being hated or fucked for it. But it makes people improve or wise up. Progress is good, stagnant ain't. Sometimes it gets so peaceful that we get complacent or laid back. Need some fucking of the mind then you will wake up. But you don't realise it is them who helps in your life, cause your blinded by your hate.

To the balance of this, there are the good guys. There console you, and encourage. I can be like that, but people don't give a damn. They take me for some relax commentary or joke and switch off their mind.

There is so many types of people in the world, God make me one that i strive hard. So i cannot let him down.

2011-05-14T23:05:00.000-07:00

People who don't want to help themselves i cannot help them.

Selfish? Not me, its her. Good friends correct and guide, lend a listening ear in times of trouble. But the decision still lies with her whether to walk that path. It's a pity why they shortchange themselves.

Maybe when i say it no one takes it seriously, i am a joker. Laughing, joking and talking cock all the times does not mean i can't think logically and sensibly to give a piece of advice. Funny thing is even when you give them the advice they still want to stick back to their fucking misery. There think it's cool to be pathetic. wtf...this is fucking pissing me off. We no longer compare what we have achieved, but rather what we have suffered.

Nowadays words can kill its so dangerous. Ego problem seriously, even so is the attitude. No one knows when to sit down and relax and when to be serious. When you joke they take you seriously, when you work they take you relaxly. LOL @ relaxly.

The world is unfair. But how you damage yourself is even unfair, to you and to the loved ones around you. On the side note, i really want to change my blogskin. It's irritating me TTM.

2011-05-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

Maybe i shouldn't be writing this... yes i should!

Luck is never one of my forte. Nor was it my worse. I have catergorised them under several...

1) Death luck - you miss a speeding car by an inch, a flower pot nearly hits your head
2) Gamble luck - the bets, 4D, ToTo, horse-racing
3) Lady luck - Girls flutter around you
4) Random luck - err... just pure random

I am not exceptionally good with the third catergory, but i have to admit i meet alot of nice girls (with boyfriend). FML. I will sub-consciously look into my karma and wonder what i have done to deserve this. Or maybe deserve being deprived the chance to find this girl. F.Y.I i am not desperate to find one. Its just that majority of my time i am alone and tends to think alot, and i am a paranoid and thoughtful person.

Recent incidents made me realise one thing. It's all my fault. Yeah that's right! Me to blame. Am i starting the blaming game? No. But i would definitely want to change myself... for the better. And i can't do it alone. I need someone T.T

A brush against death

2011-05-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

I thought i was dead at 1930 hours on a bus heading towards hougang. The fact is, i know something is happening inside me but i do not know the cause.

I felt weak, zero strength to lift my hands or head. I just moved with the momentum of the bus, left and right. I couldn't feel my heartbeat AT ALL and i wanted to fall asleep. And so watching too much of those movies, i forced myself not to sleep because i was so afraid i will not wake up again. T.T I breathe damn hard to keep my heart pumping.

When the bus stopped at the interchange, i mastered all my strength to walk, and on my mind, just to carry on to my destination. I scared when i turn around i see myself on the floor. You know like your soul continued to move on but your body is stiff on the floor. Everything around me looks so dreamy and my mind raced to say "no no come back to reality!"

This may sound fucking stupid but damn it was real to me. I don't know how it feels like to die, because i havent experience it. But at that brief moment this little thought gushed through my head. "Your life will be just a dream.....". Things that i have build and people i have loved will be gone.

The only one thing that is the most important in my life and yet the most vulnerable i have taken it for granted and wasted it at my disposal. Health.

Some possible causes: i smoke, minor food poisoning from the fish and chips at business school, a ghost flew past me that instance, meditative karma.

Hard to believe right? i was actually meditating on the god-damn bus! Standing meditation. I was pissed with myself cause if a Buddha can find answer in meditation, so can i! And so i focused on myself and it sure was good experience. Cause your bright in the mind and calm. Wow... now i got fears of meditating. How great!

2011-05-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

I must be crazy and too lonely. I met this girl at the crowded busstop opposite my school after my 7pm class. I have seen her quite alot of times and i think she is very cute! T.T okay this is getting outta hand i am becoming like a psychopath.

But admist all this chaos in my brain, i wanted to talk to her. But didn't know what channel to kick off a topic. "Hi, can i be your friend?" sounds so insincere, while "Do you have a brother named Arnold?" sounds lame and stupid.

God damned! Knowing the chances i will see her again is damn slim but i slip the chance. Now i am sitting at home sulking. Ridiculous. Any suggestions?

2011-05-03T21:56:00.000-07:00

I have dedicated my first rally to PAP and i am very proud and not regretting it. In comparison to what I see online the rallies of oppositions, i feel PAP is still the safest choice amongst the 7 parties fighting the election.

I would definitely have a hear on what the oppositions have to say IF they just stop FUCKING bullshittting, complaining, whining like a BITCH. Rally - means to win support by informing people what you will and can do for the people. Seriously man... how can a party that you have said till its worthless bring Singapore to it's current glory.

I just saw a SDP rally and they start by complaining that the rally till 10pm is not enough. Use your pea brain to think please! People needs to sleep and work the next day. Joker like you should be happy you get a chance to stand on the stage and perform. And, if you spend less time defaming, you can talk about everything under the sun already.

My sentiments that if oppositions were to get seats into the government, it would be chaotic. Chair throwing will become common when they don't get what they want. They will shout and point at each other. YOU WANT DEMOCRAZY? YEA GOT IT DUDEZ. This is just a prediction manz from the way i see them running their rally. Ridiculously dumb it makes me embarassing to be a SIngaporean.

I seriously do not want to see our dear MM Lee cry again because he whole-heartedly build a nation for us and we turned on him to vote for gossip-makers.

2011-04-26T21:05:00.000-07:00

Drugs

A substance that has a physiological effect when ingested or otherwise introduced into the body, in particular.

There is always a good and bad side to everything and anything you can find on Earth. And i am going to talk about both.

What is a bad drug? Cause of over-dose, addiction, too expensive, or just cancerous effects. I guess its a mix of all these.

Smoke for example gets you addicted ( nicotine ) and its like $10 per pack compared to malaysian ciggs which is like just $2. O.O WTF man whose earning all the extra bucks? I dunno!

And based on my research smoking causes almost any type of cancer you can think of. Depending on where your blood cells take them to. And it doesn't cure any illness. ( Maybe still not found and really hope it does! )

And Mr teacher! what is a good drug then? Well... its like the err panadols and stuff you eat when your sick that actually boosts your immune system instead of breaking them apart. Besides that, emotions can also be a drug. Depending on how you see it.

Love-drunk. You cant drink love cause its not a drink but some people just get so obsessed with it. Crazy bees to honey. Could be dangerous when you put too much into it and gets dumped. You slit your thin wrist or whatever emo rido acts you can pull off. BUT wait a minute. A healthy love life can also be a motivation to get you more responsible because you have someone else to take care of. ( Hopefully its just 1 not many )

Buddhistically, meditation is also a drug! Okay not really a drug but a prescription. The meditative state is the drug. Go try to meditate for about 5 minutes... just sit quietly in a corner on a cushion and close your eyes and relax your body. Lift your mind from the ever moving world and go back to your heart, cause that's where you belong. And tell yourself that you are happy and everyone is happy. PLEASE this is not what it sounds like - hippy. But after that 10 mintues you get a good sensation and everything will go in your way! try it manz. really

You need some form of drugs to sustain your life in a period of life when your down and out. So choose wisely which you will pick, because the consequences is the aftermath.

2011-04-22T10:22:00.000-07:00

Good Friday! sure is good... but poor Jesus had to die to wash the sins of human beings because we are evil. A creation gone bad by his dad and he has to take the rep. HE's probably an alcoholic and shows tendency of violence.

Whichever way~ i enjoyed my day. One thing i am sure, i talked like a machine gun today. I just keep babbling and yapping and snapping. Maybe cause i am just so excited to be in town and hanging out with my friends.

I like the feeling my mind is racing. It makes me feel 'used' because it looks so intelligent to use your brain. AKA not stupid / retard. Its healthy and makes you younger.

Alright to set things right. I'ma tell you all that i am so sorry i pulled out last minute. Go ahead and say i am a quitter, and boo me. But i really cant put myself to do something i have no passion and motivation to. I am really sorry alright! I signed up for it in the first place because of some if not few reasons. But slowly, they kinda just poped out of existance. And its you guys taking the heat. I was irresponsible but err... yea just knock me out manz. I deserve it.

I want to talk about drugs. Maybe tomorrow, which is later. And one more day Jesus is gonna rise. YEA BABY

2011-04-20T07:24:00.000-07:00

Discovery of the Day: I am still a fucking BOY!

Just when i thought i was 20 years OLD i am still acting like a fucking young son. I see many weaknesses in me but no critical strength to balance the weeighing scale to make me wanted (appreciated). How? The world would not want me in my state and i needa push myself harder to achieve at least the minimum.

I am lazy, angsty, impatient, stubborn. Screw.. thats alot! This post could have been a lot more but i am just fucking depressed right now.

Save me.

2011-04-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

Majulah Singapura

There was a time when people said that Singapore couldn't make it, but we did. And to such a prosperous and stable country. 46 years of independance, young nation but a maturing one.

And we have one party to thank, PAP. If it was not for him to stand up for a change, we could have just succumbed to the stronger powers then. He believed, we believed and we achieved.

I hate to complain, but i do procrastinate sometimes. I hate people who complain.

Complain = Negative VS. Recommendation = Positive

Is it human nature to make a mountain out of a molehill?

I kinda feel we have 'grown up' and is swaying from our 'parent'. We start to challenge their perspective and move in another direction. Is this all part of growing up? But what matters is we are on the right track. T.T

Elections coming and people are eager to vote but who? Current government is giving out money and the Democrats promises great changes and development. Dilemma T.T

Screw the money that the government gives, the true reward that should be accepted is the 9th of August. It is the annual report of how the country has leveled up. Money makes you happy short-term, but achievements lasts a life-time.

National service is a natural thing, not a debt to pay but a service of gratitude and pride that our nation is worth defending. Food for thought. Thinks to myself :" Say until so pretty, wait till get in then the procrastination will start to pile" 1 more year la..

2011-04-16T09:55:00.000-07:00

I love the idea of "work hard" and "play hard". And every weekend i so look forward to going out to have fun. Something out of the norm to happen. But... it's Singapore and there is only so much that could be done.

People-watching at Macs got me thinking... what are they thinking and how is their life compared to mine. What is my purpose on this earth. WHAT?!

And i think i found the politically correct answer - Balance. Family, friends, career and money.

One more thing, thinking sets you in motion. Without moving on, thinking becomes a burden and turns sour - procrastination! Burr~ hate it when you have this buggers ringing near your ears.

My last straw remains... and i hope my wish comes true!!! really wish so hard.. please please.. i will be good!

2011-04-09T20:18:00.000-07:00

Last day of 清明 ( tomb-sweeping ).

Knowing your roots is very important and serves the very foundation of your character. Otherwise it is a lost of identity. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?!

IN MY VIEW (as a buddhist), it's a good time to dedicate merits, practise of karuna and metta. To your own kins, and to the homeless ghosts. This beats offering food and joss-sticks which by some chance they may not come back to eat because they reincarnated o.o Waste? It's the thought that counts la o.o

Advised by the Buddha, after analysis and observation it agrees with reason and is to the good of one and all, DO IT.

People ask dedicate for what? You also dunno whether will get to them. Then faith is important, that's why you have religion. But i totally agree with dedication of merits with the backup of thoery such as 'law of attraction', aid of aura video stations and scientific energy such as wind, water, heat... Merit also energy, and its energy that runs the world. So.... tell me if i am wrong.

I had a sorrowful feeling when i looked at the Buddha. How nice would it be if he was there personally to give sermons. If images of Buddha were not erected i bet people will forget him over time. You thought too highly of us. However there are in our current time who has the capability to teach and guide, but do we have the chance to meet them?

2010-02-23T18:43:00.001-08:00

WOOHOO~
competition is next week.
Eggcited. HHEHE

2010-02-17T09:01:00.000-08:00

Time moves on slowly, probably for me to see what i should and suppose to do. But i am not. Zzz i need motivation yet again!

Someone to constantly push me. I am a piece of potato that sits on a couch. Roll me over and tumble me down the hill~

Dying man... i need some appreciation. Maybe its my presentation thats not winning it. Or should i find a new crowd to impress? Shall see...

2010-02-10T04:10:00.000-08:00

This is my dream hairstyle the Spiked liberty. :DD

But nw i am so far away from this dream... cause i cut my hair and its damn short and no where near the one in the pic.

So far i have 2 aspiration 1) Regrow to longer hair
2) Get a shaver so i can depend on myself to cut my own hair.

2010-02-07T23:00:00.001-08:00

Very sick. Of myself and the around me.

2010-02-04T07:45:00.000-08:00

MUSE!!! thats the only word that rings once awhile in my mind. Sending shockwave of inspiration and spirit of music through my veins. Awesome performance that one should at least witness once in a lifetime. Take up the resistance!

Everyone says this is a good year, i must agree. A new change in this time of rapid changes. Can i keep up with the pace, or thrown into the crumbs of dirt and cloud of dust that is left after a fast moving vehicle.

I want to be free... boundless by atoms and gravity. Have a taste of Nirvana and never come back to this god damn world. But can i let go of things i matter, which never exists in the first place? Hehe contradiction keeps us grounded. FUCK

I see it as an expression not as a form of being rude. FUCK :D

2010-02-01T18:00:00.000-08:00

My hair gives me my motivation to play my guitar. Thats all i need to understand.

2010-01-31T18:24:00.000-08:00

Destruction will be the construction of me. Yes and i will assist me in what I do. Briefly describe about me, i am a member of the endless and i see what leads to destruction and what is destroyed, and then i see the aftermath of destruction. I have a passion for creative and constructive endeavors, but little talent.

It always happen in life, people crash and burn whether they know or do not know, whether intentional or unintentional. Hehe... and its funny to witness the accident.

And i believe its time i take control of my life and not run from responsibility, i need my dog Barnabars (whatever you spell it). And we shall go on a backpacking trip to explore what my capabilities are... off we go!

2010-01-29T18:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday the street from Little India to Probably Clarke Quay was jam packed with Indians upholding an important festival, The Thaipusam. FYI. it celebrates the birthday of the Hindu Deity Subramaniam.

They were holding jugs on their head and cheering their friends to move on, and i believe it is this spiritual friendship you need to get you through the tough journeys of your life. The journey is damn long and i swear given my determination i will quit halfway. LOL.

The group of 5 of us went to Rochor beancurd to eat and the pocession was taking place there as well. While groups of people chatted, i eavesdropped upon a conversation, which i think reflects on the poor wisdom of people nowadays. Not saying that i have alot, but i have sufficient to at least respect and understand what others people do.

He was saying like, "It really makes me laugh to see people still doing this at this age of time".

I say fuck you man. People have enough devotion and perseverance to carry on their tradition which is not a bad thing, its mind over body, cultivation of good virtues. Whats more, its a birthday celebration. Dont critic fucking comments like this please.

2009-08-22T09:36:00.000-07:00

Miss Sweden :D Damn gorgeous.

Anyways met Donavan, my childhood playmate, on the train! What coincidence. Its really affinity, to bring us to meet in a same small cabin, at potong pasir station.

Had a hearty chat with him, been long since i really talked to a relative, a conversation at least.

Time really flies. Haha, still can remember those kiddish giggles and toy car mayhems we use to construct. Power rangers were our guardians.

Sweet past are meant to be reminescent. And the true happiness we seek for are no longer what we savour when we were young.

2009-08-20T07:55:00.000-07:00

Today went to IKEA at tampines with my lovely girlfriend. Had fried rice with chicken wings and a bottle of bitter Old Gold. Swedish beer, but made in China? Haix.. pity. And its an irony, i have fried rice at home, but i travel so far to eat fried rice.

Well, Swedish are creative with home designs, at meat balls. And also pretty girls. Damn Miss Sweden, Renate Cerljen sure is hot. Whee~ Enough of fantasies, back to reality. Study.

2009-08-18T09:24:00.000-07:00

Today while i was dreaming, i realised one thing. Oh god i forgot... Damn it.

But well i do know one thing. Man wont cherish the thing they have until they lose it. I will not be an example of this parody.

And my mum came up to ask me for movie timing today. :) sadly, i never brought her to watch any movie at all. Initiative!

2009-08-15T00:46:00.001-07:00

YEAH!! Great excuse to blog. Since i am online and got nothing to do. I am meeting i dunno nothing about.

Nothing to blog actually. Bye bye .

2009-08-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

Swipe off dust from my blog, i am back. And everytime i blog, dosent seem to have anything positive. Well, i hope i can change. After getting some motivation and inspiration from Jack neo's movie 'where got ghost'.

Well, i would say the movie is based on local story. The movie does not contain scientific measurements, but it did well in trying to bring out morale values. Its good with comparison to previous like 'i not stupid' and 'money not enough'.

Well bye bye. Sleepy,..

2009-07-30T08:38:00.000-07:00

Yes today was a pleasant day... NOT.

Fuck man. I hate the world around me. But yet i must thank those people that make it a little nicer and brighter for me. Hate makes us want to revenge, but yet love holds us back. Wth man. Irony. Always the irony that make you look stupid, pick sides. Is this what the game is all about?

Either your fucking bad-ass or your fucking angelic. Pick your side. Hmm... sitting on the fence only gets you killed by both sides.

2009-07-29T18:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a brief and simple day, i could use a few words to describe it. Peach flavored water, blue-berry muffin, friends, tired and sometimes hungry. And not forgetting my beloved girlfriend. She was always around when i think of her. Zzz.

I feel that we no longer study for the sake of knowledge, but for the sake of fighting for our dear life to get a job. At the end of this life when you look back... is it worth it? Hmm... i love and hate studies. But i will still prefer to do the things i like, most preferably induced into my studies.

Alot of thoughts flowing in my mind now. Concentrate!

2009-07-24T19:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a night out at timbre. My first time. Well theres always a first time for everything. Hmm... the family was there, except for death who is currently serving the great nation.

Yeah, we had a lot of fun, booze, food, chicks, alicia pan (woohoo~), and a little interesting story telling.

Wenlin's off to london soon, wish her all the best. Private bathroom! hhaha just joking.

How do i describe timbre? The place looks like a secret hiding place on the top of the hill, with a good ambience and natural settings. However it is a little small though... Hmm... i feel like opening a pub. Heehs.

2009-07-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

In a blink of an eye, today is done. I feel that i have done something but could have done more. I sense anticipation in the air. As if nature is waiting for something to happen.

Tomorrow is the big day, 500 years previously, the same thing happened. A solar eclipse. Nothing big you will say, but it definitely will bring something along with it.
haha.. well thats all for today. My mind tells me i should blog this. It was not planned or anything.

2009-07-20T20:52:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a night out for harry potter - the half blood prince movie. Hurray! Hmm.. not really a big fan, but i prefer the book.

The movie was okay, but i feel that harry potter is just freaking dumb, and extrodinaryly lucky. Like what malfoy has said, Hogwarts is just a lousy excuse for school, i have to absolutely agree with him. 6 years in school and they have not made harry a brighter person.

Then i got home and saw a GTR-34. Those glimming round eyes you just cant miss. It leaves you a feeling of chasing her when she flies past you. An ingenious piece of art. Haix.. wish i could have one.

2009-07-19T02:44:00.000-07:00

These two days were the best and the worse of the month. Lack of proper sleep and poor discipline has led me to destructive actions that hurt people. I am sorry for what i do. But whats the point of saying sorry and not change.. i will change! For the better of presenting myself.

I also realised that i am not trust-worthy in my parents eyes. Yeah... i got nothing to complain cause i do everything to make them lose trust in me. But still... not happy with their response towards my relationship. Fucking not happy.

One thing for a change, i would like to be a master of myself instead of been a follower already. I will fight for myself. Fight for what is right. And at this point i see the important things that are around me and i will not be silly enough to lose them.

Hard to be a Buddhist, you have to watch yourself carefully, always. Thats the fun part to be perfect. :)

2009-07-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

Today proofed to be a fun and exciting day. Trip down to sembawang for job stuff. Had a hell of a time idling with my friends, really missed the good old days we all played together, care-free. And i need to get back to my school work soon. Heehs. dun want to crash and burn.

Then to the arcade, battle gear II. Sounds like robot fight? Wrong, its drving game. Mastered the drifting technique, too bad guys, you all are gonna lose! haha.

Finally not forgetting a series of fortunate encounters with rare cars. First up, Toyota levin AE85, BMW M3, 2 Honda S2000, 3 Nissan GTR35. And not FORGETTING Nissan NSX! Woohoo~ too much for a day.

2009-07-11T23:47:00.000-07:00

Sunday, i am sure. Seems like days i have slept. Never had this kind of deep sleep and i love it. Just throw everything behind and slumber to your hearts delight. But when i wake up from this kind of sleep, it always feel like you have woke up in a different dimension. Everything just seems really foreign to you. Weird.. but i don't really care.

Yesterday was sports camp. I had fun, fatique and swore alot. But after taking a walk in hell, i realised what i do/was doing was not what a true human should do, at least that is what differetiates us from others. So i aspire to change from now, so i won't wina ticket there. Haha.

Finally to mrs crocs, i love you and am very proud of you! :)

2009-07-06T03:24:00.000-07:00

yuan yi was here :DDDDD

Jian yong is irritating and annoying
and he is eating durians now.

LAZYBUM!update ur blog!

ciao~

2009-07-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

Today was, i would say, unexpectedly fun. We had fun at East Coast Park! We talked thrash, took pictures, waste time renting our bikes ending up parking them by the side cause we were all not in the mood to cycle. Then we moved on to Douby Ghaut to have our dinner. Terrifically tasty grilled chicken rice. Must try.. damn i will so go back and eat it again. Followed by a little game of hide and seek at a medium-sized mall. Then chill at macs. The end.

But i will also like to apologise to my girlfriend for been a sour plum today. BECAUSE of my sticky and annoying skin and abit tired mood. God damn it.. hope i didnt spoil your day? I really enjoyed your accompany, always. Love.

And also, please God-send me a vehicle, please! I see the need for a car now. Cause i dont want to see my girlfriend squeeze on a bus or train anymore! Or let her take night buses which leaves me worrying. My parents will also be benefitted, somehow. LOL

Though your last and greatest invention was the human legs. I also must thank our ingenius effort to out smart God by inventing faster moving and efficient vehicles. Though it polluted his wonderful Earth, He didnt make much noise, so i think He should be fine with it. Hurray human!

2009-07-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

This few days been having some run downs.. dunno why but i just keep poking into them. Zzzz so bored, always ruined my perfect day. And i dreamt of playing COD4 reallife just now with the usuals, Vicky, ernest. Lol and i shot someone's dad and mum, dont even know him.

Have ideas of really starting a fight club. Anyone wants to join? RSVP for my friends for tryout. LOL. And last of all.. thank you for getting me the shirt! Its really awesome!

2009-06-27T22:01:00.001-07:00

Thanks to my laziness i have not blogged! Congragulations. You took a first step to post this one. Hmm... What should i talk about?

Sometimes i find myself funny, i see the weakness in me but i do not try to change it. I just sit back and watch it grow worse. Thoughts to action, action to habit. Bad habit. For example, i get really 'nua' in my second semester. No mood to study and stuff like that. But i do not put in the effort to work hard, but instead focus the effort on playing harder. Haha. I kinda like it. Okay... inducing wrong values to oneself and others.

Secondly i got poor financial management. I get peniless very easily. OMGosh. Hey i just invented something out of the blue... Hmm.. i see myself either a really poor man or a really rich man in the future. Nowhere in the middle i guess. Hmm rants enough.

Hope all goes well. And also... I love my supergirl :) Nobody but you!

2009-06-22T09:48:00.001-07:00

Sucking first day at school. Teacher never came for lesson. Make me go down to school for nothing. God damn it. But i must admit i had a really fun day today. Err... thats all i guess.